Dear Waves,

I'm sad to hear that you are having such a hard time

Your last posts concern me. Of course you don't have to explain the separate demons if you don't want to. I respect and can identify with that.

I don't think the epilepsy center will work out. It doesn't seem like a healthy or inviting environment. Personally, I would speak to the volunteer coordinator to tell her it won't work out and why.
You don't need to deal with another ***** right now.

I think it's a wonderful idea for you to get out and do some meaningful work! I wish I could find a place that would accept me & I'd do the same. I like to feel purposeful, and would enjoy the bump to my self-esteem.

There are plenty of places that would love to have you volunteer your time!!! And without such friction.
Some suggestions: senior centers, adult day care, food pantries, organizations for the homeless, veterans' programs, recording audio books for the blind, or MS organizations?
I don't know how many of these programs are available in the UK...

I hope that you are able to reign in those demons, and your employment situation improves soon!

HUGS, HUGS, HUGS,

Kay