hi.

i'm still going to call the Epilepsy place and wrap things up with them. i need to do that, for myself. i am curious though, because you know i have had an increasing feeling about the office manager being uncomfortable with the bipolar thing. so i am going to wait.... i am going to see if she calls monday.

here's the thing. shortly after i got there, the mgr left for a quick errand after settling me in with something to do.

i told her i was bipolar later, in a conversation about disability - i was concerned about disclosure for a psychiatric condition. she said but i doubt that's psychiatric ... she did not know what bipolar was. so, goofball here asks if she's heard of manic-depression and she says, well YEAH, but that was like ages ago... i said well bipolar is just the new word for it.

after that, she went on 2 other errands, and had me go with her (there was no need). in one case i declined and she insisted. so, yesterday, it occurred to me maybe she didn't want to leave a "mental patient" in the office with the others, ya know? i'll never know if she doesn't call, but if she does call to ask me to go in, it would prove me wrong. (i'd like to be wrong here.)

regardless, i will not be going in tuesday. i don't feel obligated to talk about the smoke issue with her. i might, or might not.

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but at some point i will talk to the volunteer coordinator about things. he sometimes does weekend activities that are not at center...

clearly i will tell him about the smoke and be very clear that i am only open to activities held in a smoke-free environment.

and it might be food for thought for him/them regarding smoking in the center. smoke exposure is bad for everyone, not just those of us who go into coughing fits or potentially land a nice migraine. AND it can be a seizure trigger for some.

~ waves ~