thanks everyone...

Donna... you told me over and over again how you believe in me... when it was hard to believe in myself means so much.

Bobby... you are totally tuned in on my historically based fear of stress causing me to fall apart... and indeed itt is my biggest fear... that i won't be able to deal........ thanks for understanding. yes, let's hope this one is a "ticket" to being manageable!

Mari... you have helped me so much work through the details of my mental gymnastics through this entire process..... SO MUCH... thank you.

Bizi... you are a great cheerleader and companion. thank you your support and constancy.

Sharla... HI! i thought about you yesterday and *poof* here you are! ... like i summoned you telepathically or something lol! good to see you - been missing you. thanks for the encouragement! how are ya?

((( others who have posted to help me along )))

thank you all. it all helps!

no call from the consultant regarding going in for contract-signing tomorrow. i need to take a shower/wash hair (1 hour jobbie). so i might call him. think i should tell him i'm gonna be in the shower? hee hee.

i recovered the warm business jacket i couldn't find, and my mom has 2 other nice ones that fit me, for winter. i will need to buy a second pair of wool pants. one is doable for interviewing, but for working every day, need an extra one to wear while one is at the cleaners.... well at least i got that sorted out. it was keeping me awake at night - NOT KIDDING!



love you all thank you so much

~ waves ~