Thanks Mari, Bizi and Kay.

yes i am doing it.

got contract. start date is wednesday the 17th. i have lug my own laptop back n forth until they get me a workstation.... i HOPE they are planning to set me up a workstation.... as opposed to giving me a laptop to haul back and forth!!!

someone still has to call me to tell me what time to show up and who to call. they may need me there 8.45 to check some things that run overnight, before business hours.

the commute is reasonable, considering i live outside of the city. it should be under 2 hours once i start, i will know better. it depends on how long the bus takes to get me to the city and that varies with the time you take it (traffic) between 30 mins (late night no traffic) to close to an hour in the morning. the rest is subway with a line change... approx 40-45 mins, 5 min walk to office.

i am feeling very draggy. i have not been taking good care of myself.

also very scared. the anxiety is starting to hit big time and i am not doing appropriate things to manage it. i keep praying something will just snap in me or outside me that will cause me to just somehow... reverse polarity. (no pun intended.)

if i don't straighten myself out i will screw up at the job. i am scared of that.

i need a shower and to wash hair and to shop for pants and get a flu shot and another medical exam. my brain is working on "can i put off the pants purchase for a week"

~ waves ~