
Cat
I'm so sorry for your loss. Whether it's expected or unexpected the death of a loved one is always so vary hard.
Please don't put pressure on yourself to be or act a certain way. Especially so soon after his death. I would assume you're still in the "shock" stage. Everyone grieves differently and there's no right or wrong way. And there is no time frame for grief. Whatever it takes for you....that's the time frame it will take. It's a very personal thing.
The unexpected crying.....or "grief bursts" as I liked to call them......were very unnerving to me and seemed to happen at the most inopportune moments. And at places that had no specific or sentimental meaning to me.

That's just the nature of grief.
I hope you'll give yourself some time. Don't put pressure on yourself to try and assume a normal pace. It'll happen.
You have my deepest sympathy.