Thanks to all again...

I had a big cry last night, mixed with a lot of, "WTF! No, seriously WTF!"
A feel a little bit better.

I finally got to searching for all the extensive lesions seen during the colposcopy that the doc called "globalization."
Turns out, I'll probably have to go back several pages on google because globalization is also used to describe cervical abnormalities as a world-wide epidemic.
For some reason I have no energy for that right now, but I have been looking up various other related things trying to work it all out in my head. I have a hard time integrating visual info & I'm having a hard time melding pictures/diagrams of the cervix with text on the subject. I will work it out, but it's going to take me a long time. I guess I enjoy driving myself nuts.
I know that I can't get an answer until I get the pathology reports...
Pretty soon I'll stop searching and accept (almost) that I just have to wait. That is until a few days before I go for that f/u appointment when I start searching again.

I'm disgusted with the coffee ground type crap I'm still passing & wonder if I'll ever stop smelling like the vinegar they use to coat the cervix.

My sister called. I answered. I just needed some time before I felt up to dealing with her. It went pretty well.

I'll catch up with everyone else's threads soon.

Thanks again.
Kay