This is driving me nuts.

I've had maybe 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night since last thursday. Sometimes not even that much. I will either lay awake and not fall asleep, or I'll fall asleep and wake up 3 or 4 hours later.

Tonight things are weird. I was tired all day. I wanted to take a nap this afternoon but all I managed was to fall asleep at my computer desk while I was knitting. Was probably only asleep about 20 minutes before a phone call woke me up.

Now tonight...ok, this morning, I've been laying here for a couple of hours, not sleeping and feeling really weird. Those cold symptoms I had yesterday, my dad thought they were from the flu shot, because they seem to have gone away except for the sniffles. But, my throat feels weird. I took some baclofen and one or all 3 of the pills felt like they didnt go down. I had to drink a bunch of water to help that sensation go away, which it hasnt really yet. My throat feels dry and like I cant swallow right. I also had a few seconds earlier where I felt like my breath got caught in my throat. Kind of scared me.

I feel very very very anxious and maybe the teeniest bit manic or something. I just cant sleep. I feel like I did when I was on steroids earlier this year. I'm not on steroids right now, and when I drink pop, I drink the non-caffeine kind because my dad cant have caffeine and we both drink the same stuff.

I'm supposed to go out tonight with my parents and my sister and her family and one of my dad's sisters. I dont think I'll be able to do it if I dont get some sleep. Soon!

I'm considering taking an ativan (not a whole one) or another sleeping pill I have (cant think of the name, and it also wouldnt be a whole pill either)

I'm just worried now that I'll oversleep and not get up in time for our dinner reservations...and my back and shoulder hurt like crazy for some reason and my right foot keeps getting an itchy sensation that makes my foot twitch.

Can someone tell the MS trolls to leave me the blankety-blank-blank-blank alone...I'm about to start crying from frustration, and that will just make things worse.

Sorry if I'm venting. Sometimes venting about it seems to calm me down and lets me sleep for a bit. Hopefully it works.

I think I'll go sit in my lazy-boy chair and see if sleep happens there.