First, last night exploded with ambulances, managers rushing in at full speed, police cars, ambulances, coroners

We didn't know who died! We feared one lady in particular who has no family and has been on dialysis for years and all she talks about is wanting to cut her shunt and just die. Day after day, this is all she talks about. She's 80 years old and is still the love of all residents hearts. I was terrified she had actually done it or else slipped away in her afternoon nap-she had been to dialysis this am.

Well, turns out, it was the woman who never leaves her apt (Ive only seen her once in the 4 yrs Ive lived here) She had been homeless for 10= YEARS UNTIL THEY FINALLY GOT HER INTO THIS APT. sHE NEVER LEFT THE APT. sHE HAD BEEN DEAD FOR 3 DAYS and no one knew it. She had fallen and had hit her head. Turns out, she was a hoarder too. So, it was a huge shock to all. Everyone is sorta walking around numb and I dont even want to hear about it. Way too sad for me to even come close to thinking about it.

Then, my best friends sister died at 5:12pm this afternoon and when I got back from walking my dog, there was a message on my recorder from my son who was announcing that my new grandson had been born at 6:12 pm (his time...making it 5:12pm my TIME-same FREAKING TIME AS MY FRIENDS SISTER DYING!!!!!!!!!

i'M IN AWE....WITH a spiritual vision of the virgin Mary holding the infant with her heart wrapped in perfect joy and in her other arm her little lamb slain. The message...I am God and I hold life and death in my heart and arms.

Oh my...I am too little and simple for such complexities and mysteries of life.

I think I shall strip it all off and go streaking naked down the street!!!LOL