I'm sorry to hear your feeling bad rose. i've had mine for 18 months. the first 9 months were the worst as i had no effective painkillers, and couldn't sleep. and going without sleep just made everything awful. I now have lyrica, which helps me sleep, but i still have pain every day. some days are better than others.

although it's hard at times, i think its very important to stay positive as it will make you feel better. good luck.