I can identify with you both. I ended up having to get a rollator and only use it when I HAVE to...my neuro made me get it. but I'm finding that to be more and more often. I hate the progression I'm seeing in myself.

It seems in the last year and half, anything I've hoped was a relapse didn't ever get better again. I try a cane, but like you say, it really doesn't help. when I lose my balance the rollator is the only thing that can save me from going down.

I can't use it in Walmart. I have to drive the electronic cart thingy. I don't hardly ever go shopping anymore, because when I do I just don't even look around, but just straight ahead to where I'm going. I don't want to see anyone I know. I don't think they want to see me either, so I just try to avoid it.

Until this year, I have went to visit my friends at my old school, but not this year. I don't even want people there to see my decline I doubt that this is a good trend I'm getting into but don't really know what to do about it.

ANYWAY.... I can sure understand how you feel.