Lee! That was a super nice reply! Thanks so much!
You know the drill, don't you. You have PAIN!!, sorry. I read your stuff, awful stuff, bless your heart, you have been through so much, and it's not over until it's over. I wish you well and a good night's sleep.
You are totally right about my daughter. I would like to move away, as I hate that rejection, that's what it feels like, but I know I can't leave my daughter. And now I have grandchildren, so I can't bail out on her or them. She is so unaware of what is happening with me. I tell her things, but like you say, she has no clue.
Maybe I SHOULD tell her that I am needing a "shopping day" at least once a month now. The heavy stuff is so hard to deal with, like kitty litter (for my doggy, Bean), and potatoes, and apples. That kind of stuff is so hard to take on a city bus, and the whole thing is such an ordeal to carry home, even in a cart.
I read that you have had a morphine pump, Wow. For years I have rejected any kind of drugs from doctors, too many liver and kidney killing side-effects. My rule is -- no drugs, no painkillers, and only rarely a Tylenol. At first I was taking them, was asking for help with pain, but I was a prisoner. I still had pain anyway, and some doctors accused me of being a drugseeker, and the painkillers magnified the pain when they wore off. So I use bio-feedback, and I am very good at it. I decided to do this when my good neurologist commented that I shouldn't take painkillers for "benign" pain. Huh?? But he meant that nothing will ever cure my spinal cord pain, so I should learn to go drug-free.
Take care, Lee, and thanks again for the good advice.
LaVerne
PS. Photo is my best friend and companion, a lovely, one year-old female Hairy Hairless Chinese Crested. If you Google her AKC name, LeeLoo Love Me Bean, you can look at her listing and pedigree on the Chinese Crested Registry.
