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Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: In a DARK corner.... not looking for a way out.
Posts: 5,526
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Elder
Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: In a DARK corner.... not looking for a way out.
Posts: 5,526
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I wonder that I am missing someone in my life that my heart is hurting....A LOT!! 
I wonder that it was my fault... due to my suicidal thoughts, feelings, actions, and lack of actions.
I wonder.. NO... I am sure I have used up my last second chance and I know I don't deserve any more. I wish I knew how to repair a badly damaged friendship...again...my fault.
I wonder that I feel like crying....
I wonder that it feels like I have been punched in the gut....
I wonder that I am still coughing... it's been a week and a half.
I wonder if all of this is now causing my upset stomach.
I wonder that I keep meaning to take a picture of our outside Christmas lights but every time I remember my dad has shut them off for the night.
I wonder still at the innocence of a four year old who told her mommy to call her teacher and tell her that she couldn't come to school last Friday because she had been shot. (she had a immunization shot.)  
I wonder at everyone getting ready for Christmas and I just don't have any holiday feeling. I just want it to pass on by.
I wonder if I will be the last to post before the Wonder Police stops by and shuts this one down.
Hugs to all...
Abbie
p.s... sorry for the bad wonders...
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My avatar pic is my beautiful niece Ashley!
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Rest in Peace 3/8/90 ~~ 4/2/12
Last edited by Abbie; 12-05-2010 at 08:45 PM.
Reason: typos and grammer errors... just not my night. :o(
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