Dearest LaVerne ~ I like this saying: Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. Why are you DOING this to yourself??? God gave us brains for a reason. He expected us to use them. He also have us DRUGS for a reason ~ to EASE our pain!! Opiates don't harm your liver ~ they aren't "broken down" by the liver. And any neurologist that told you that you shouldn't take medications for "benign" pain (my God!) is an ***. He shouldn't even be practicing because he has NO CONCEPT of chronic pain!!

Do you know that constant, intractable pain can cause a person to life a shorter life??? That is a person who does NOT take any meds, or cannot GET them. Your body just shuts down - it tires out from fighting it. I don't know how severe your pain is, but WITHOUT pain meds, mine, on a scale of 1-10 is a 15. If I didn't take meds, I'd be at the hospital every day! How you can stand this is beyond me.

You SHOULD be taking pain medication is your pain is severe. Anyone who knows about chronic pain would NOT think you are drug seeking. I would NOT however discuss any medications with my family -- they don't understand this kind of thing and would probably call you an addict.

No, I didn't have the morphine pump ~ I just had the TRIAL for it. It turned out I was too small to have it implanted. I had the SCS implanted, and that tried to work itself out, so I had to have it taken out. It didn't work well anyway.

Your daughter should AUTOMATICALLY take you shopping and I'm embarrassed FOR her that she doesn't! She KNOWS you're disabled - how are you supposed to bring all your groceries home on the bus?? Is she nuts?? I'm sorry, but she sounds a bit selfish - she should be taking better care of you!! I spoiled my daughter to pieces, but I Know she'd make sure I had what I needed, even if she went and got my groceries herself, which is what she would probably do.

I hope you can get some meds, and some HELP. You need both! God bless you dearheart. My prayers are with you.