Thanks guys

Mari, I could try combining public transport and a cab. I can take a train from my town to Boston (and figure out what stop to get off) and take a cab... That's a good idea! I forgot about the train!!!

Steve, I keep the radio on to keep myself alert. I think my driving issues are related to the cognitive problems I have from MS. I've been a pretty scary driver around town the last 2 days, too. I got lost going to physical therapy today even though it's right up the road and I've been there 3 times.

Bizi, You're right, I need to get tomorrow's appointment out of the way!!!
I saw my PCP yesterday to have a follow up appointment (follow up to what, I can't remember) and to discuss all my recent medical crap....
We discussed my abnormal pap-smear, and constant bleeding...
Because having a baby is almost definitely out of the question anyways, he thinks it may be best to have a historectomy....
Intellectually I know he's right, but of course I have mixed feelings about it.
-Estrogen replacement to control the bleeding is not a long term solution and may make me manic.
-I don't know what severity the "pre-cancerous" lesions are, but either way it will require lots of follow-up care and/or procedures.
-I really don't need to deal with 2 more on-going problems that could effect my health.
My PCP is going to speak to the gynecologist, who is right down the hall from him. I'll talk with him some more after I get my pathology results tomorrow.
I still haven't told my husband about the hysterectomy possibility. I think he still wants to hold onto the idea of having children.

I just have lots of concerns.
Not only the appointment tomorrow, but my health is deteriorating. My cognitive deficits are becoming much more challenging and noticeable, and my gait and balance are worse.
I have anxiety, but I'd say I'm holding it together. Yesterday and today I've been sad, but no tears and really no pity party to speak of (yet).