I don't know exactly what's wrong; that's the problem. I've taken tons of Xanax just because I can't face having that panicky feeling all night. And I've put on a new Fentanyl patch, taken double Percocet....trying everything I can think of to get this feeling far away.
My brain is doing those crazy shocking things almost constantly...around 75 times a minute at this time. They are so very strong that they can knock me down. I tried to journal but they knock the pen out of my hand...I can't say that they truly hurt horribly, but they are annoying and totally knock me off balance.
Nothing unusual has happened to bring any of this on; it just happens sometimes and takes a long time to stop. I'm very afraid right now and, although I extremely rarely talk about my feelings, etc., I'm so scared. I don't know what to do.