I haven't tried that; I tried reading because I usually read for 3-5 hours each night but I just don't have any concentration tonight. I can't sit still; I can't lie down; I'm just continually walking around the house and have been for hours. I couldn't even talk to my husband tonight when he came home from work. I won't wake him up just to get me through this; he doesn't understand this at all.
I've had a very good friend die this week and another who is going to die any day. I know that, with my dx, I probably don't have too long....and, although I am extremely anxious to go, maybe this week has just been too much. I'm so definitely not afraid...I just feel horribly alone right now.
The crazy thing is, I have every thing in the world to be thankful for. And I am thankful but right now, this is all I can think about. I just want to go to sleep and not have to think about anything for awhile. I don't know why I'm so freaked out right now.