I don't want to take pain meds because they make me sick for one thing but I had a brother and sister who both died young from drugs and alcohol. And when I was younger a lot of my friends were addicted to drugs. They kept trying to get me to do it but I said no for fear of being like them. Most of them are dead now. This pain all started after I had been working for about a year for a taxi company. I worked there for 5 years. The office was in a very old factory building and there was a big oily pool of water not far from the door. Years later I read that it was a toxic waste dump. There was a major to do about it. Everyone was ordered to move out and it had to be cleaned up. A lot of the cab drivers have already died of cancer. A couple were good friends of mine. That scares me too. So I'm wondering if that had anything to do with it. Another thing I want to look into is my sensativity to electricity. There have been times when I have gotten up and unplugged the fridge and anything else that hummed. I can't even go into a store with fluorescent lights because it makes me very dizzy. And panic attacks.