ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh panic attacks are kicking in big time. I haven't eaten since Sunday, my appetite is always effected when my nerves are bad. Sleeping is an issue too.

Tomorrow afternoon is court to see if he goes to jail. I so hope this will be over in some sense tomorrow.

My girlfriend is taking me, and I am meeting my court advocate there.

I dread seeing his face. I hope I don't get emotional, then again I can just walk out, I am not supeoned to be there, it's just that the prosecution and his PO wants me there. It helps their case.

Today, need to try and keep busy.

Klonapin is going to help me get through tomorrow for sure.

I saw my DV counsler yesterday, which helped.

Nikko