I am so sorry to read your story here - and you know that because of my dogs I have not done away with myself many times. Like you I am old - no Family or Friends - just sitting here and wondering what to do with myself. I am also on many medications for constant pain and I suffer from Bi-Polar/Depression - so I can understand where you are coming from. I do not have a lot of advice for you really because my position is not much better than yours but if you ever want to talk - please feel free to write - I do not mind private mail.

Morri