yah i know it... and if i get manic or any form of delusional i WILL lose my job. (been there, done that, more than once.)

probably that is why he is slapping me on depakote so quick.

i had thought disturbances a few weeks back too, but that resolved... dunno if that played into his decision... i do have some Zyprexa just in case.

but i ad mit part of me is really reluctant to medicate this

i feel sooo ALIVE
oh the touch of satin and the taste of sangria

but everything is quick to turn to.... very reactive....
if i were a car nobody could drive me... my steering would be too sensitive hehe.

and rememebr when i was saying i'd flet dead for so long??? so ya know.....