Tara

Im so sorry you are still in pain post surgery
I too, like Mark, remember the awful pain of fusions the feeling of being hit by a train comes to mind. It was horrendous. I didnt have the paddles only the leads so I cant say what your pain is like, but If its anything like the fusions then I sympathise with you so much.
I hope you are taking some medication for the pain and hopefully that will help you somewhat.
hope you and Jerry have a wonderful Christmas and a very healthy and Happy NEW YEAR too!
Jackie