Sorry I have not been around; my hand is hurting like well...

There is NO FRACTURE but possible ligament and/or tendon damage. The pain is so bad. I have to keep it in a brace 24/7 to prevent damage but do take it off to shower/ wash etc. This morning after my shower it swelled so bad & the pain was off the scale. Add this to the 24/7 neuropathic overall body pain that I have been experiencing & I am ready to put my head thru a wall. I am not scheduled to go back to the orthopedist for 3 weeks but a friend suggested I go to a noted hand specialist instead. Going to make an appointment on Monday. In addition to the damage from the accident I have the contracture from the MS so a hand doctor would probably be the best person to treat it not an orthopedist since there is not a fracture.

The van is a mess & tied up in petty childish nonsense. The van was towed to the same shop that failed to properly fix the van a month ago after I paid them almost $800. I tried to get it transferred to the mobility place but the first placed REFUSED sayiing that they had the van they were repairing it. I sent them an email saying they DID NOT have permission to touch the van. The mobility place then decided someone should do the body work before they worked on the hand controls & inspected them. The insurance company has their own body repair places. However when they called the company that had my van they were told that my van WAS NOT THERE! How come it was there a few days before? They finally admitted they had it when I said that if they didn't have it I was reporting it stolen & the police had a record that the van was towed to them & undriveable. Then they would not releae it until I sent them a written release. I faxed them a release 3 times & they still claimed they never received it. I faxed it to the new body shop once & they received it. The new body shop went to pick up the van after being told that the release was all they needed but THEY STILL WOULDN'T RELEASE THE VAN. Now they wanted a copy of my license & registration. After several attempts to fax these & them saying they DID NOT get it my mom finally went there personally with that information. Almost 2 weeks after the accident the van was finally sent to a body shop that could repair it. Now everything is tied up because of so many people being on vacation because of the holiday. I am told that it will be at least 3 to 6 weeks more before I can drive so it is not that I can drive the van it is just the fact that it is caught up in all this mishagosh. If I had the van my mom could drive it & that is easier for me to get in & out of than her car (a very small Intrepid). Relying on mom for rides does not always work out well either as she volunteers EVERYWHERE - at 80 YEARS OLD she still puts the Energizer Bunny to shame!

The MS continues to rear its ugly head thru all of this. The worst in when I get spasms in my injured hand & it is pulling against the brace. Then there is the fatigue. I use to "lose" about 1 day a month this was a day where NOTHING WOULD KEEP ME AWAKE. I take Nuvigil & I could take the medication, go back to sleep & sleep around the clock. This now occurs once or twice a week. It is so bad that the other day I went out for a blood test in the morning, came home ate lunch, fell asleep then proceeded to sleep thru 5 phone calls (very loud ringer with voice caller ID). My mom needed to reach me & came home worried that I might be hurt when she was still worried when she had trouble waking me but once she knew I was just in what has become known as my "comatose sleeps" she was FURIOUS. Does anyone else experience this?

On a similar note, my bio dad died before I was born but his sister told me that he too was a heavy sleeper. He once slept thru a house fire. The firemen carried him out of the house on his mattress (no easy feat he weighed over 450 lbs). He woke up on the lawn on his mattress & questioned what all the comotion was about. I was never like this I was always a light sleeper now I sleep irratically; a few hours here & a few hours there throughout a 24 hour period. I usually wake myself because I have to go to the bathroom or when I try to turn over (it is very difficult for me to turn over without assistive devices & when I am asleep I am not thinking of looking for them) but now 1 or 2 days a week I get these comatose sleeps & just cannot function.

Well that is all I can type for now with one hand but I am going to try to be around more - I miss you guys.