ME! ME ME!

Christmas hit me hard this year. I am not normally a melancholy kinda gal, but this year I rolled up my pant legs and got knee deep in it. From remembrance of birthdays of loved ones lost to thoughts of recent passings and sadness about my child's situation to feeling ding dang sorry for myself and this stupid disease! I didnt want to decorate, I didnt want to socialize. I didnt want to do exchanges of presents or holiday parties. I had to work hard to drag myself out.

Yesterday morning I opened my eyes and realized it was over. Its like someone took a large stone from atop my chest. The parties are still going on in this town, but somehow its different today than it was yesterday. This stupid disease has really kicked my fanny this year, and I for one am glad to see this blasted year go bye bye.