A nice warm spot to vent, what a wonderful idea! I truely hate this time of year as it brings memories of "what could have been" along with large blank spots thanks to ECT treatments during a terrible time in my life. I seem to reagress with my depression as this time of year hits, my therapist and P-doc, tend to increase the frequency of my visits, check-ups, text messages and calls to check on me. Not welcome for the part of me that just wants to be left alone with me, myself and I. I am sure that in the big picture it is for my own well being. Today I find that I am alone in my home, the little one was abducted by her so called father last evening, thanks to the "monster in law". I have my hospice kitty here, changing my TV chanels (she kneeds the remote) my puppy is on the floor readjusting one of my older shoes and my family is all out working on the ranch feeding cows, etc. I have much to do by the looks of my home but I have no energy to do the things I have to do. I have taken my meds like a good nurse, but......
Lately I have also developed what I think is a spread of my RSD after 12 years....I have the familiar burn on my right foot. It is following a pattern that I dread, feels cold then feels like it has been put in the wood stove... I need to call my PM doc, however he has told me on multiple occasions that he has never seen a true spread. I have reported my internet findings, including those from Medscape. For the most part he asks for my input and my opinion of the research that I do on different models of SCS and different company support. But in this he does not seem to budge.
Well enough of my gloom, dispair and angony