Dear Mari

the stuff you posted about the throat chakra fits me to a T. i read something vague about that stuff a long time ago and think about it from time to time... in how how i am blocked from expressing myself.......... this the whole creative hole if you'll pardon the pun.

thanks for info on depakote/infection... good to know although in my case it was brewing before i started Depakote.

dunno where the mania is at. past the Christmas sentimentality which rendered things murky ...i thought maybe i was falling... or maybe it was frustration from the illness incapacitating me for a while....

now mood is chipperer than chipper. i am still rambunctious but having fewer (today none) of the holy guacamole i'm dead spells of crashing on the bed because of body caving in.

i am perpetually doing stuff and in a hurry. tonight i had scheds to do but i did extra stuff... got it wrong, got irked, fixed it, and then moved onto the important tast of shaving sweaters.... i had to desist at some point as i must go to bed. i am not totally unreasonable no, and i do know i need to get to bed. i am resisting the temptation to get on with the pants alteration thing.

in retrospect i see some weird stuff :

- i bought a bunch of useless dumb stuff - no, not expensive and tg i didn't have the plastic option. hose seems to be my "THING" this time around. (no earrrings or cards this time, wow!) it seems to get brought home and forgotten. i turned it up when i was looking for stuff to handwash.
- i turned what might have been supposed to be a 1/2 hour job? at work into a several day project i am still not sure what to do with that.... feel compelled to finish ... maybe i can finish fast?
- other stuff at work.... i know i was not right the last day i spent there. i hope tomorrow is ok. there is weird stuff going on with my boss ... i hope he is away so i can detach.

i mean, lately, i have been been shut in the house sick, and like really out of it despite the restlessness. that feeling was very uncofmrtable and frustrating but if you think about it it is somewhat containing. so yeah, i feel better now insofar as i feel lots more on top of lots of things (DON'T take that too many places please....). and i'm not having those recurrent crying fits which sucked.

yesterday i cooked up a storm. it was more than i could handle with a fever and yeah i keeled but hey.... food got cooked!

so, is the hypo/mania/"HIGH" better? ehhh... yeah, it's much better thank you - i am much more able to appreciate it now!

~ waves ~ hoping i don't buy more hose tomorrow... especially more that doesn't fit.