I am so depressed. All the commotion of the holidays and my boyfriend who has been so good since the car accident in july, all we do now is fight. I was alone on my bday because we were in a fight, we fought on thanksgiving, we are fighting now, all he will say is how much he wants the girl he first met back. It's so sad. I can't help it....I want myself back too. I have no money. no insurance. Have not been able to get good medical care and therapy. I'm feel like I am on house arrest because I can't afford to leave. I have now drained my savings borrowed 1000 from my grandfather to stay afloat for 1 more month but after this money is gone I have nothing. I really hate my life. I feel so alone. If it were not for the amazing love of my son I fear what would happen to me. I'm sure my boyfriend will not be around much longer. I guess I am too much of a ***** to stay around anymore. I still have hope that something will happen soon.