thanks "Finz" maybe i was over reacting.its just all this hard work and waiting just to get turned down.we did go before an "ALJ".i havent heard from my lawyer yet cause he's on vacation till janurary(perfect timing ) so im not sure what im to do next.i guess i can always cancell my doctor appointment till i talk to my lawyer.but your right about my bills.how can i pay my property taxes,insurance,etc...so i will wait till monday and see what he say's.but thanks for helping me with some words of hope and ration.its what i needed