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Originally Posted by rose_thorn98
My turn to vent and to have a breakdown. Tomorrow will be 4 months since this all started and changed my life. I feel so sad and hopeless. No diagnosis...and in so much pain. My Lyrica seems to work a bit, but last week it stopped working as well, so in increased the dosage. But now, after only a few days, its again not working as well. I've been referred to a pain Dr. but of course can't get in for 2 months.
I just want my old body back. Its so hard to live like this, in pain all the time. Its so hard to be a good Mom to my little boy, and to work and to be normal. The Lyrica is making me so foggy and forgetful all the time. I just want to be my old self, minus the drug fog. Today I couldn't remember what Christmas presents I had gotten people. Sorry to be a downer, but I just have some days when I can't stay positive.
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Dear Rose_Thorn98
hope you are feeling stronger today. Im sorry to hear that you are in so much pain and without diagnosis. I so understand you, many of us want our old life back. I wish i could change the day i was injuried, and today my life would be different. Its really hard stay positive, specially when we are in pain, but i believe a pain doctor will help you, but dont wait 2 months, make noise and get to a specialist as soon as you can.
I did a lot of noise, its been 4 years now, the beggining was terrible, alone, abroad, i couldnt understand english, have no clue about nerve, painkillers and all, i even couldnt explain how i was feeling to get help, but i found help somehow. Still a long road to go for me, lots to learn, coping, improve, and accept... one day i hope be positive whole 365 days of a year
Normal? maybe no, just different perhaps.
Your boy probably knows, children have so much more understanding than adults. Dont feel guilty, give what you can give, and love is a precious gift.
This forum will help you a lot, theres plenty of information on internet, but this forum is special to me.
Dont say sorry and listen, YOU ARE NOT a downer. We are on the same train... Thank you for share with us here
WE will be happy again, happy with who WE are, and with whatever WE have.
Please keep us informed when you go to a pain doctor
lots of love and strength
Carla