I have scars up and down my arms from years of depression and suicide attempts and hospitalizations. Turns out I just needed to get out of my parents house and work, exercise and socialize. It was very hard the first year, learning to be a person, but that was 10 years ago and now it's like breathing. I have not been on medication for depression or anything in 5 years and I am very happy. My relationship with my parents improved a couple years after I moved out.

This is my story. i would never suggest that it is what you should do, but I will suggest that this darkness is a chapter in your life, not the whole story. Hang in there and you will change, grow and evolve. Kill yourself and the book ends. You have a right to do whichever you wish, but personally I'd advise you to stick around. Its worth it... As dark as it is now, is how light it will be.

Love and Light.