Thank you all for coming to listen to me whine again. I know I make it hard to help me, after all, you've already told me everything, but nothing seems to have any effect on me. It's why friends leave me, and it's why doctors hate me (and I'm not particulaly fond of them).

And I know it's impossible for others to understand what's wrong with me. If you ask a normal person what they want, or what they enjoy, they'll be able to list all the things that make them happy. But when you ask me the same question you get a blank stare. I can't even start to write my list because I don't have anything to write. And I know that's impossible but it happened. I've examined all of my options and none of them appeal to me.

So I just sit and watch the world go by, because I have no interest in being a part of it.