I actually do rehearse things in my head before I say them, even entire conversations and thinking of how to respond to anything the person might say. Mainly because of shyness/social awkwardness (possibly social anxiety) but I also want to know exactly what to say in case I have trouble saying or finding the words, especially with someone that's not family.

My family hasn't read the TBI Survival Guide, though I will when I have time (college semester starting soon. fun...lol). As far as the rest of my family, none of this is brought up, ever. Especially around my dad. It's like their huge dark secret that's not a secret anymore, but still never talked about. But, I'm basically an adult now (18 next month) I can deal with this myself. Well, I have to. Thanks for the reply and the links