I can't really tell if the feelings I've been having are just plain ole sadness or depression. Is there a difference and where do you draw the line?
I've had a lot of changes in my life recently and I know they can be major life stessors. But there are times I utterly cry myself to sleep and just feel so......unhappy. I know I should be strong enough to pull myself out of it but I just can't seem to.
My mom died in early 2009 and I miss her terribly. We moved quite a way from where we lived before and I just don't feel comfortable in my new environment.....everything is so far away.....Walmart is an hour away and the small town we are in has....nothing to offer. I never feel comfortable driving long distances so I guess I feel a bit trapped.
I can just start thinking about some things and start to cry....like at the drop of a hat! Maybe I am just feeling lonely? My husband is not a talker and doesn't like to go out to eat or anything.
I'll be 53 this year and still having a menstral cycle so I'm not sure if its hormonal or not.
I mentioned to my GP that I've been feeling really sad and she didn't seem too concerned about it. Its not like I feel like ending it all....but I don't really feel like life is worth anything either.
I take Wellbutrin but that doesn't seem to be doing much. I have an anxiety issue that I wish I could get some help with. I'm scared to drive on any road where the speeds are over 55 mph. I used to get frequent "spells" that I call "off balance" or "like I'm floating" and while driving I would panic cause I just didn't feel like I was "one with the car". Maybe like I was moving separately from the vehicle. Very hard to explain and I think I have developed more of a phobia of driving over it. So that makes me feel even more trapped and unhappy.
Sorry this sounds more like whinning than anything....but I'm not sure what direction I should take to help myself.