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thanks for the checklist I am going to take advantage of that for sure. Having him fill it out as well about me will help me to see what he sees and maybe when he sees how I see it will help.

Mostly it is now a lack of communication. I am getting better which is kind of making things a little worse as I constantly readjust to what I can or can't do. And then when something I was able to do again goes away again it's yet another adjustment.

I call my house my prison because the only time I leave is to get my son and sometimes go to the store. My financial situation is beyond dire at this point. Mostly I am alone. I have tried to explain to him that I need him to lean on even more now than ever before and I get upset when he leaves me hanging all the time. He won't tell me when he's going to be home if he is coming home. He still has his apartment until the lease is up in april but stays with me almost every night. He will say he will call and doesn't.

This last fight was because he went out for drinks with another woman that is married and I know her but the plan that I was told was he was going to work and then had to go out of town. Instead of working all day he ran around with his friend of the opposite sex all day and then ignored me and had drinks with her. I wasn't invited or told about it. The only time I can leave my prison is when he takes me from here as I don't have enough gas to even make it to the other side of town.

He says he is doing nothing wrong but no matter how i try to tell him i am being left in the dark all the time and it is making me crazy. I don't want him to feel he has to check in for every little thing he does but it would be nice to know if when he was coming home. And I don't think any woman would be happy about their boyfriend having drinks with a girl friend without being informed. There are other things too but I won't go into that.

He just says he wants the old me back. He never really gives me any examples of what the new me does that is so bad so I just sit here waiting on him everyday all day. I am sad and depressed, stressed to the max and him making me upset all the time isn't helping. I spent my birthday alone because we were fighting. I just feel like if he really loves me he will make whatever effort needs to be made for me to feel more secure. I know if he were the one who got injured I would make sure to be there 100% until his emotional state was stabilized. I feel like he is just getting tired of accommodating me and I can't tell him if or when it will get better.

Maybe it is unfair to ask someone to change their life because I was the one hurt in the wreck and not him. I was driving his car when we were hit by the drunk driver. He was not hurt only me.

thanks for you reply. i feel very alone and have very little financial, mental or emotional support. I am on a waiting list for some assistance but it might be months if ever that i get anything. A person from a support group called me but never mailed the info and I don't know when and where they meet. I can't remember from our conversation and can't find the notebook i wrote it down in. So at least for now you guys are kind of all i have. and i am very thankful for you.