I'm so sorry Karilann . I totally understand what you're going through. I'm with B2y on this one. If I changed a little about your post it could be me.

I lost my mom recently also. I moved very far away from family and friends a few years ago. I don't drive very often either.

Please keep posting and talk to your doctor again. I haven't had much luck with antidepressants but I haven't given up on them yet.