just want to let you guys know I am doing ok. Don't know what's going to happen yet but I have a better outlook now than I have in a while thanks to reconnecting with some very good friends.

Advise to anyone else out there.

You can't do it by yourself. You need a really good support system. I have not had that. I am now getting it and it is helping.

Thanks to all of you who read and respond to all my depressing posts. I have high hopes that future posts will be much more positive.