i was so relieved that the social worker said she didn't expect me because of the weather. I was scared i could get in trouble with the clinic because i am forced to see her every other week to stay in the clinic. I had such a hard time trying to find a new place to go. I couldn't see myself standing in the snow and slush for a half an hour waiting for the bus. I still feel as if i am coming down with something.
My lack of childhood was very hard on me and all the criticism I got from my family. Then i incorporated it which made things so much worse. Now that i am a lot older I finally am getting in touch with the feelings of helplessness.
Gee i still can only walk two blocks. My weight has come down a little so i really didn't gain any weight back. I lost what i gained back. If i could lose thirty pounds I bet i could walk more. My printer just broke and i had to spend more money to get a new one and I used to be so computer savy and now i am worried about installing the new one when it comes. Then a couple of mornings ago my cursor disappeared and i went into a terror. I finally rebooted the computer and the cursor came back. I just can't seem to deal with problems anymore. Yesterday i napped on and off and didn't get out of bed til 12..i never do that. I just couldn't cope. Maybe when the tax situation clears up and I have more time to heal from the loss of Yuki I will be able to get more control of myself.
bobby