Leggzalot, I think the way Deoji (spelling?) turns off her mind at bedtime is helpful. I do this too. I consciously say "I'm gone, God protect me during the night from all harm." and will myself to just put aside the daytime. I think what can badly interfere with this is some drugs. You are taking a lot of drugs. Can you cut out some? I know you must take some because of your pain. Me too, right now I'm in awful pain part of the time (neuropathy) so I have to take pain pills, but I would not be found taking Ambien, Lunesta, or any of those night time sleep aids. Ever. They would do to me exactly what has been described here. Sleep a short time, wake up, and never go back to sleep. So I consciously turn off the day. Deoji calls it "meditation". For me it's prayer, but a short prayer, because I don't at that time (bedtime) want to go into a long discussion with God, thereby keeping the mind active. The mind needs to go somewhere else at this time, not to indulge in thinking and debating of any kind. And I consciously turn over protection of me to God. I do not intend to BE THERE at all during the night. I'm gone!

I don't dream much, and when I do they are not pleasant dreams, they are anxiety and fear dreams. I would so like to get over that. I'm afraid the Interferon I'm taking is
causing this anxiety. I may have to quit it.

Drugs are poison. They must be used very selectively. It's so hard to do that when we have real illnesses, as doctors depend mostly on drugs.

I wish you a good night's sleep, every night.

Mariel