I've decided to get my thoughts together and tackle this head on starting with my G.P.

I want a hormone count

I want some help with my anxiety/phobia. I need to make her understand how unhappy this feeling makes me.

AND I can't bring my mom back but I also need to keep telling myself how unhappy she would be that I have allowed myself to feel this way

I think if I felt comfortable driving again......I would regain some of my freedom and therefore some happiness.

Even writing this makes me still want to cry. I feel so.....pathetic.
Thanks to everyone for talking me down from the ledge! I need to put on my big girl panties and tackle this head on at full force in a proactive way instead of feeling sorry for myself.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
And the wisdom to know the difference. AMEN!