I am not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of dying alone. I have no children so I wonder who will be with me when I die.

I also don't want anyone to have to go through my stuff! I am determined to weed out all but the necessary things and a few mementos and books. I have a niece who has agreed to go into my computer and delete everything after notifying my contacts and saving any wanted pictures. I already gave out all the family mementos to members of my family who wanted them. I told the old man to give everything to whoever wanted it or to charity.

I made out a will and the usual POA and HCP. I have it set up so he has someone who will come in and check on him and clean if need be, if he is here after I am gone. He gets a life estate in my home and when he is gone it goes to family to do with as they wish, either keep it or sell it and the proceeds go to a trust fund to ensure that our family summer home continues on since many of us are scattered there and I am going there as well. I've got it fixed so none of the little buggers can change anything and do not gain anything if they lose the place, until only one or two direct descendants are left, if that happens.

I feel good that no one will have to deal with much of anything, but still wonder if any of it matters since I will be forgotten in a few years anyway! I've left a few hidden reminders at the family summer home to be discovered after I am gone but who knows if they will even care...They have their own trials to deal with, without me gabbling at them from beyond!