I often feel as if I am prematurely being forced into Erickson's final stage of ego Integrity vs. Despair although I wonder how much of it is just life itself in becoming a "mature woman" of 46yo as opposed to being the fresh young face on the block. Probabaly a combination of both but MS sure has shortened the time frame.

Integrity vs. Despair – Wisdom (Late Adult: 55 or 65 to Death)

Erikson believed that much of life is preparing for the middle adulthood stage and the last stage involves much reflection. As older adults, some can look back with a feeling of integrity — that is, contentment and fulfillment, having led a meaningful life and valuable contribution to society. Others may have a sense of despair during this stage, reflecting upon their experiences and failures. They may fear death as they struggle to find a purpose to their lives, wondering “What was the point of life? Was it worth it?”

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