I find my fears very disabling. The pain limits what, where and when I can do . . . the exhaustion limits how much I can do . . . but the fear gets a hold of me and starts slammin' all the doors shut!

I agree with wanting to taste that rush of stressful decision-making, meeting deadlines, and handling other people's problems that I left behind when I had to quit working. Whenever I have two decent days in a row now I get a little hope building up inside. Unfortunately it never lasts.