I was the 8th grader wall flower at the parties. Virginia is my real name and they chanted "virginia is your name but you won't be vergin long." I didn't know what that meant. I was thrown into the pool, I didn't want to go swimming. It was my time of month...in front of my whole class. This picked on stuff happens to alot of people. I am sorry so many have made you hurt. My solution as an adult is I became an artist. I had long hours in the studio, happy just with my shows and my life. It can turn out Ok, even if parts of your life are filled with those picking on you. I won't, and there are others on this site who will support your feelings too. I believe people are spirits, not just the body. I hope this day, you give some small pleasure to yourself, a nice piece of dark chocolate? ginnie