Your responses are packed full of good stuff......so much so that I'm gonna print out this thread and stuff it in my purse as I must deal with how I'm going to handle an unexpected situation.......cripes when a death in the family happens, our worlds must come to an abrupt STOP and most of my distant family member have NO idea how 'disabling' I am becoming....
Only my immediate family are the ones who see me curled up in bed wishing I could just fall off of the face of the earth ......

I am in NO condition to travel that's for #@#$%*& sure!
I can't 'boo hoooo' to my relatives about "MY" issues...for crying out loud my COUSIN DIED..!!
I'm practically having a mental meltdown because I can't be there for people who need support.....I can't even feed my horses anymore....I can't BE ANYBODY!!

Can someone just stuff me in a BOX and Fed Ex me to the funeral?
Could it just BE THAT SIMPLE!!!!!!

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate all your input.
It really means alot to me

Doc.... thank you for that funny 'visual'....I feed off of humor. If it weren't for humor, I'd be a gonner by now, that's for sure.

Hugs to all
Rae