I think that you are making a big mistake if you return to work. If your doctor(s) said you are completely disabled,then you are completely disabled. Find hobbies and interests that will take up most of your day. You gotta look at the big picture. If you go back to work ,you are risking losing everything should your impairments get worse. If your SS insurance runs out,that means no medicare (unless you pick it up on your own-not sure how that works)and no SSDI. Can you live on SSI? People here that are fighting to get SSDI ,gotta be shaking their heads reading this thread. It sounds like you are disabled but sounds like you don't like being on SSDI.