Hello
I am almost at the 6 month mark now. I am still crying everyday and can feel myself slipping into depression. I am already on anti-depressents for my RA and Neuropathy and I have let my neuro know I am feeling this way. I have days in a row where I don't get out of my pjs and don't feel motivated to do any thing. My RA and neuropathy flares aren't helping the situation any and I feel very lonely.
Now I am feeling the overwhelming urge to dispose of my husband's ashes per his wishes. I have to go to California and dump them in the Pacific Ocean. I am waiting til March or April when weather is not so cold and I am hopefully feeling better. I have the feeling that this may be my stumbling block and my answer.
I still can't say his name without my throat getting really tight, and still can't bear to see pictures of him.
I hope I am doing ok.