So many people in the past who were "forward thinkers" were thought of as "crazy." Highly respected people like Leonardo Da Vinci. You're in good company. There are so many things in the world that we don't understand. It's great that you have an open mind. And heart.

Social security looks at your work "history" and your inability to do it. Seems like you have a good track record of that.

Guilt? We all pay money into social security so that it's there for when we need it! It's OWED to us if something goes wrong.

You deserve to be healthy but, since you're not, you deserve to get social security disability.

Annie