...that I'm a complete WIMP when it comes to pain threshold/tolerance.
Plus, I haven't been swimming in quite awhile (since one of my leads was removed) so, I'm sure the lack of excercise and increase in BT pain meds is contributing to my backsliding.

Mark, you've worked incredibly hard to get where you are....you've remained focused and steadfast as you've gone thru the stages of recouperation and titrating off your meds. You've faithfully followed a PT plan and have never once complained......you always confess that you are blessed.
You are a wonderful SUCCESS story - no two ways about it!
You will remain in your 'honeymoon' for as long as you desire!

I need to grow some b--ls and become more determined in my effort to stay above this battle.
Guess I'm just going thru a pity party or something.....confused as heck tho.
Once I get in with a new spine specialist, hopefully I'll feel more in 'control'.

Well, Jackie I think my issues are very similar to yours......
When I say I think i may be heading for 'disability'.....it's because I am in NO way able to do my work...not with this 'gremlin' in my lower back....sitting on my spine with a chainsaw. I am not able to sit at a desk, not able to stand for very long......and it's as tho my 'working days' seem to be fading right before my eyes......and it's all because of my back, just like you described.
And it seems to be getting worse.

'Early retirement' sounds like the way to go.....I hope/wish/pray that it unfolds this way, rather than me abruptly just coming to an 'end'.... not sure what I mean by that. I'm just not sure of much at all right now.
Just seem to be in a vortex of unanswered questions.

I guess I should be a bit more clear regarding my SCS....
All in all, I AM 'happy' with it. It's just that I have several other pain issues that I seem to be getting slammed with. My unit is doing exactly what it was meant to do, and that is - it covers over the horrible burning neuropathy in my legs.
I don't want to sound as tho I'm a 'failed' SCS..... Not at all.
I am happy with what the little unit is doing.

yep. happy happy happy