oh (((bizi)))

maybe it's my impression but you sound like you're crashing... i mean you sound so bummed.

i hope your friend Dan is understanding and kind to you. it might be comforting and nice to have the company, if he is clearly supportive of you. that is my hope for you. celebrations don't have to be wild and physically extenuating. y'all can maybe party a little less crazy this year. (i say that quite oblivious to how 'crazy' you normally get... maybe not that much.)

but i am imagining a fun meal, maybe other invitees - if so, have them bring a dish, do a pot luck. and alkyhol, that will take the edge off things for a while. sometimes when a solution will take time, the occasional bandaid help bear out the wait....

i don't want to encourage in a way maybe i am you did so well not drinking, i just don't want you to beat yourself up about it, if you do it. if you choose not to, well then kudos to you for holding out.

just keep taking care, and getting the rest you need.

~ waves ~