Don't ever feel like you're babying yourself when it comes to this, this **** is hard. You just have to know you can get through it. When you worry constantly that you're not in control, it really makes it worse. The best thing you can do is be confident, socialize a bit, and try to keep your mind on other things, got any hobbies? And when it gets really hard, remember how many of us are in your position or have gotten through it, you're not alone in this