Nah. She and everybody try to understand, and I hate to sound cliche, but really, unless you have been through this crap you don't know what it is like.

Pity Party? Sure.I recognize that and need to be able to accept my new me. How do you learn acceptance? I don't want to give in to my condition, I still refuse to accept it.

But in the same breath I hate being treated like a galley slave. If I listen to people and Drs tell me I can't do stuff I am going to start to believe it.

I have already taken the first move to look for work where I can run away and be off the grid.